It’s not that I can’t write, it’s more that it’s been
difficult to find flow, when it feels like I’m taking dictation
from my soul, or possibly channeling an article, story or poem. It’s when I write every word that I hear
without censoring it.
The late Robin Williams said that everything flowed through
him and that he mainly channeled his work.
He also said that many writers, artists, actors, or creative people talk
about being the conduit.
I prefer to write in flow, like Beethoven did, but without
becoming a monster. He was obsessive and wrote music
incessantly. Or I’d like to compose like
Mozart, who penned music effortlessly, sometimes completing his masterpieces in
one draft.
Or I’d rather create like van Gogh, one of my favourite
masters, who painted because he must…but I could do without having the
depression and committing suicide. One
year he completed two hundred canvases. Starving, penniless and sick, he
generated works of art simply for the joy.
Actually, I’d like to write like Marilyn Kleiber, a fellow writer, who is prolific. She
writes one or two short stories a day.
Marilyn creates the beginning of short stories with prompts given at the
Headwaters Writers’ Guild meetings. She definitely writes in flow, possibly
because she writes on a consistent basis.
For me, poetry sometimes arrives without any effort on my
part. That’s when I rejoice. My creativity flows when I remember to write with
passion and from my heart. I swear it frees the writer within me.
Whenever I become discouraged and have writer’s
block, I remember van Gogh, who painted from his heart and soul, and he
recognized that creativity is its own reward.
Eric Maisel, author of Coaching the Artist Within,
suggests that we must coach ourselves to become the artist or writer of our
dreams. Change your thoughts – change your creative life.
I’m infatuated with words, and I even doodle words. I adore
journaling, seeing the blank space fill up with uninvited words.
It’s not
easy being a writer. Doubt is always present, along with fear. But I hunger for a creative life. I write for
the joy of it and how it fascinates and excites me at the same time. I want to
say that I lived and to record my perspective on life.
Maisel also suggests that creative individuals should write
out life-mission statements. How could I have forgotten that I am the author of
my life, or that I assign my life’s purpose, and my life unfolds according to
my commands or the choices that I’ve made?
All this time, I waited for the Universe to tell me my
life’s purpose when I should have told the Universe.
I wrote this piece in September 2008. It flowed in my
journal. Even when I channel some of my writing, I still need to edit.
Written by Nancy Rorke, posted by Mary Patricia Bird
